Posted by ccampbell in Tight & Toned: Fitness | 9 Comments
Death Sounded More Inviting…
Hard work and dedication always pay off...
Death presented itself as a more inviting option.
The pain…excruciating.
The fatigue…unbearable.
I could hardly fathom a thought, let alone get my head wrapped around the idea that I had to kick out an intense workout.
That was how I felt for the better part of the last two weeks…
12 weeks to go till I prance across a stage under spotlights, in front of hundreds of people in a bikini and for the first time the heat was really on…
Up until this point training and diet had been a piece of cake, just a big slice of dedication was all it was taking but then I hit what felt like a brick wall.
Let me explain…
Yes, I was faced with the stark reality that Brian was going to be away for an undetermined period of time.
Yes, summer camp had wrapped up for the summer and I had to forecast working and parenting into the same timetable.
Was that the unbearable part…no…I had all that under wraps, organized and was ready for the days to come.
And then it hit…out of nowhere!
A stomach flu so gripping that the idea of so much as breathing left me in waves of nausea. It seemed there was a God however because the brunt of it struck on my recovery day.
Couple the flu with the sudden insomnia that I had developed that kept me alert and restless all through the night and what do you get?
A zombie! …well a zombie who still took the time to do her hair and makeup however.
Now the whole point of this post is not to whine and complain about how horrible the experience was…and believe me IT WAS!!
The point of this post is to prove that when you want something, and I mean want it so bad you can taste it, nothing can come between you and the dedication it takes to get there.
Did I want to do 20 minutes of Burpees on a nauseous stomach? NO
Did I want to eat protein filled eggs when my stomach was craving carbs? NO
Did I want to crawl back into bed in hopes that the sandman would find me? YES
Did I give in to any of it???? NO!!!!
I pushed through every last second of every workout…some of them leaving me in tears.
I ate ever last ounce of food I was supposed to consume as per my glorious training diet.
I did it with fatigue racing through my body…
A tornado stirring in the depths my stomach…
A 7 year old who was hungry every 5 minutes or needed help to reach the toy that was too high…
A heart that was longing to have her man return…
What’s your excuse?
Stay Sexy,
C2
PS: The picture above is from a photo shoot two days ago…pushing through when all brain waves were telling me to stop was worth it I believe…what do you think?
Facebook comments:
I think, nice boobies!
LOL!! Thank you
Carrie as hard as it may get keep it up because the end result will be very satisfying in so many ways. As a former model search competitor in the year 2000 I have to say it was the most uplifting and one of the greatest experiences of my life. I competed 7 times and won each and every one. Did I ever think that this would have happened – NO – but I knew this is what I wanted to do and accomplish and it brought other opportunities to my plate- like being in Oxygen magazine, hosting a show and color commentating for TSN with Thea Andrews from Entertainment Tonight -so if you have a dream don’t give up no matter what because you will be surprised where it can get you.
You look great in this picture and I know you will be at your best on competition day. Keep it up and be strong! Life is about challenges and surprises. Girls rock!
SEXY momma!!!!
I ain’t got no excuse, I’m the same as you, lol.
I never understood why so many women hope to live a long life if they’re only going to fill it with self-absorption, body maintenance, and image repair?
When we die, do we want people to exclaim ‘She looked ten years younger/she had a great body/she looked great all the time’ or do we want them to say ‘She lived a great life’?
I stongly believe that being so vain actually tortures the spirit instead of calming and satisfying it. We should all start practicing moderation in order to be able to taste the real joys of life in abundance.
Thank you so much for your comment Jay. I completely understand the perspective that you have and I think that it is important to point out (and I speak for myself because I won’t for others) I don’t maintain my body or myself the way I do for anyone else but myself. It has nothing to do with the way other view me it has to do with the way I feel.
I have been on the other side some…not in the shape I want to be in or putting the effort in to my self the way I do and let me tell you NOTHING feels better than feeling great in your own skin. I will also add I live a great and wonderful life!! If you have read any of my other blog posts you will see that.
I opt to taste life…every single morsel of it!!
The most important point to take from my commitments to myself is that I do it for me, myself and I! I appreciate the honest and candor of your comment very much , thank you for sharing.
Have a great day!
I think you look fantastic. I never would have thought you had the flu. You look great.
Didn’t have the flu was simply exhausted…but in a fantastic way!