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Life, Love and Lemons…Episode 7
Brian and Steve (filmmaker) on location shooting.
The hopeful prospect of 14 days has turned into 30…
… And counting.
That’s life when the intangible elements surrounding Brian’s return home added into the dozens and the probability of finding closure on even one of them is based on the intertwining dance with at least 3 or 4 others.
30 days, and uncertainty remains the only constant.
It’s become almost surreal in nature.
My surroundings haven’t changed an ounce; but my world has.
The overwhelming feeling of comfort to see his smiling face every morning seems like the most distant dream.
The scent of his skin leaving a glorious trail as he strolled from room-to-room in our house a ghostly memory.
His brilliant touch; a sensation I can create through closed-eyes only, a far-off envisage.
But what’s held us together and so terribly connected through this time has been something so incredibly unlikely….
We seldom talk.
And although counterintuitive in appearance, it has been one of the most romantic and stabilizing experiences of my life.
Neither of us are ‘phone people’.
Both fiercely independent.
A mutually shared passion for life and opportunistic-minded attraction to finding the prospects a given situation may present, rather than its potential for negative.
Ever the polymath, Brian has used the time in Chicago to reassemble his former performing arts group and chart a new course for projects that touch all of their artistic souls.
The group, ‘Bohemian Soul Revival’, just wrapped up filming last weekend on their latest venture (yes… and I do promise that a sneak peak truly is coming your way very soon!).
As for me, blogging and modeling has been keeping me incredibly busy over the past month – not to mention the fact that my Fitness Competition is only 7 weeks away and preparation for that is only intensifying!
Our collective schedules are a combination of tiresome, invigorating, passion-filled and chaotic…
… And have left a lot of holes in overlapped free-time within which we can chat.
But for us, it’s never been about the small talk.
The insignificant natter about daily life.
The insincere pleasantries.
It’s the texts I get midday that tell me how he and his crew just found the ideal location to shoot.
The poetic IM’s I receive at 2am instructing me to rub gently over the portion of the bed he’ll be filling again soon, smile and then fall back asleep.
The emails he writes reminding how distance is the fools’ prohibition to true love.
Communication is and forever will be the key to a successful relationship…
I miss my man terribly; but our shared zest for life, independent of each other, has made this experience entirely manageable.
Stay Sexy,
C2
Facebook comments:
This is a love story that one day should be see on the big screen for everyone to enjoy as much as I do reading about it.
xo
C2 C2 C2….where to start…lets just rename the blog “howIdoit” and leave it at that…all we do is read about how you live your life and sweets if u got any advice on how i can make a living unfolding my enchanted love story of how my hubby and i met..pls i ‘ll take it, may be the only thing i’ve taken from you. something tells me were hearing the story of a trust fund girl is that the case C2? really is it? if so stop making it sound like your work so hard, cause it offends others out there with the 9-5 well (7am -midnight for me)Also enough, stop making yourself out to sound like someone thats got perspectives on life we’ve never heard of..its enough seen this movie on 100 other blogs too many times and actually returned it unrewound. i started reading your blog cause the idea was somthing different and i genuilly though you’d have somehting relevant to say; i still tune in daily and im keeping my fingers crossed that one day finally you will, but i stoped hoilding my breath a long time ago..i was blue in the face. another question i have for you and please answer honestly how long has brian been in your life cuse how the story sounds im not thinking its been too long, i sincerly hope you understand the start always seems like a fairy tale…it doesnt last forever…. i know there is no way you will actually post this and thats fine i just hope this open your eyes a bit to what people are really looking for when they plug in a blog of this sort…change your game C2 or get a diary cause really nobody cares anymore.
PS: laugh all you want at my spelling got three little ones tearing the house apart so not too much time for spell check thx C2
and pls stay sexy lol
C2…Hope you don’t mind, but I’d like to address the comment from Mary Jane II
17 years ago when I finally won a lifelong battle with obesity I could have easily started a blog about the whole process and how it changed my life. Instead, I was out in the field working with women who wanted to know my secret. Quickly, however, I realized there were very few people who really wanted to hear about safe, sound principles, of taking control and making lifestyle changes that would make a world of difference…no, everyone wanted the quick fix, that magic bullet! Look at the stats on obesity…arghhhh!!, people are still looking for that quick fix!!
I have to honestly admit, I can understand where you are coming from, but not because I agree with what you are saying, because it is so much easier for people to criticize how others have turned their lives around and are making their dreams a reality.
Criticism is an escape, it’s a way for people to avoid looking in their own backyards and then having to step up to the plate to admit: “I’m not where I want to be!!” Everyone does it; it’s a protection mechanism and a way to avoid facing our own unhappiness and frustration.
We live in a time where the vast majority of people are chasing that ever illusive dream of happiness…it’s illusive because it’s defined by what society says “happiness” is and not by who we truly are and meant to be! It takes an enormous amount of courage, strength and determination to step out of that comfort zone…change is not scary…it’s terrifying!!… And, as long as ego is involved change is next to impossible.
You’re absolutely right, there are 100s of other blogs out there that tell very similar stories. While the events and details differ somewhat there is a common thread…people who have turned their lives around had the courage to stop looking outside of themselves and to others for their happiness. They looked within, they looked at their lives, they took inventory, and had the courage to admit their lives weren’t where they wanted them to be because of THEIR choices and they were RESPONSIBLE for those choices…a “perspective” not many are willing to accept!!
Any 9-5er who takes offense should truthfully and honesty ask themselves, “Why am I offended?” Listen carefully to what comes, write down the answers and then honestly, without judgment, ego or anything else read the answers…you may be surprised by what you find!!
Life is meant to be a journey of growth and development…for some that growth and development comes easier than for others…but whatever the story it will come!!
Anytime one of C2′s blogs has stirred a somewhat negative response within me I know one of my own needs is not being met and there’s something I need to look at.
Oh!! and let’s not rename the blog…because “How SHE Does It”…inspires!!
Amen C2! Communication IS where it’s at!
And.. AMEN Ariana! Well said. Can’t add anything to that.
Right off the bat I’m sure you not going to post this but I have to say what is on my chest……
I have been following your blog since you started, and I have to honestly say that it has no helped me one bit. The blog talks more about you fairy tale love story like Mary Jane 2 said…There is no tips for moms what so ever. In the begining you were giving women tips about great sex, ARE YOU KIDDING ME????? do you realize who you are talking to, and at the same time who you insult???
And your attack at those who work 9-5, are you serious????? Some of us have to make a decent living. And can’t live on a blos’s salary, and your blog makes how much money????
And you ramble on and on about your fiance and your fitness competition are coming up… I never hear you talk about your kids like the way you talk about those things. And you have the NERVE to say that your past fitness competition got derailed by your pregnancy…how dare you!!!!!!!!!!!! Talk about not being happy to have kids.
I think that you are very self centered and extremly sensitive, and you talk a lot of shit.
Anyway this is probably a waste of time, cause you don’t have the guts to post it!!
Now, now ladies…. No reason to get the claws out!
My blog is open to any and all comments – I censor no one who opts to speak from their heart.
Enjoy the freedom of expression as you will…. Much as I will continue to enjoy mine!
Stay Sexy… C2
Wow! There is tension in the air!
I think that some opinions are a little hasty but everyone is entitled to their own.
A blog is a personnal thing. The way I see it, you start a blog because you’ve got things you want to share. Carrie wants to motivate women to find the fulfillment they deserve.
I don’t remember seeing anywhere in How Does She Do It Mom a part that says “I WILL FIX ALL YOUR PROBLEMS”. The posts are meant to be motivational so that you find YOUR OWN inspiration to change things that weigh you down and prevent you from attaining true fulfillment.
If this blog was about how to raise my kids, cook and clean… I wouldn’t be reading it. I love THIS blog because it reminds me that the most important element in my life is ME. If I’m not happy, my familly won’t be either.
And finally, if someone is not pleased with the content of this blog, then why don’t they just ask questions or suggest things they would like to hear about, or even, stop reading? Why get all worked up and critize and give verbal bashing?
And Carrie, your reply could not have been any better!
Stay sexy, Sexy!!
MJ
Ariana, While you do have an inspirational story (i.e overcoming obesity) I can’t help but wonder how your story has any relevance to my comment. You did however make some good points in addition to the story you shared with us. Now while you did make some valid points, my issue here is not with the principles and perspective that you mention.
Please allow me to reply to a few of the points you brought up in C2′s defense and what I find fustrating with her blog.
1 – You wrote “people..had the courage to stop looking outside of themselves and to others for their happiness. “. That is true and I applaud the many who have done that. But after reading C2′s blog especially posts about Brian, I cannot help but wonder wether she really took charge and changed her life/image for herself or for Brian (i.e I quote Carrie -July 29th -2010 – MISUNDERSTOD BY MANY “For those of you who have been reading in the past few weeks you know that I have gone down a long road of self discovery…EVEN MORE IN THE LAST FEW MONTHS.” Now isnt it ironic that Brian made the long drive just a few months ago? Now MJ, you say Carrie wants to motivate women to find the fulfillment they deserve, and apparently this should be done by looking deep within as carrie claims but it seems as though C2 went through/had a major life change and body transformation right around the time the love of her life made the long drive to move here. We really should practice what we preach and stop pretending to be something we are not, C2 I am sure you know exactly what I am saying.
2-The name of this blog should be renamed, actually, the name should be amended for one reason only and that is because having children makes Carrie no more a parent than having a piano makes her a pianist. Considering this is a `momblog` I find it very surprising that her children are barely mentionned. Oh there are the few times such as when carrie worte “And sometimes, when we’re lying in bed (with my 4 year old daughter sleeping peacefully in the next room), I roll over kiss (Brian) and say “give it to me one time before you fall asleep”. Clearly C2 is inspring but I think she you should`ve left out the word MOM and went with `how does she do ìt“ or maybe “how does she do it with BRIAN”
This has nothing to do with jealousy or envy, it is also not intended to be a hate comment, it is merely an opinion. But if c2 or any of you ladies & gents take it as hating, remember that the only thing worse then being hated is beig ignored. At least when they hate you they treat you like you exist.
Anyway I am sorry I got everyone heated up – I guess I just brought more unneeded attention to this blog
Stay sexy xoxox
Loving the read ladies! But why is their so much criticism amongst each other? For heavens sake ladies can we not support one another and stop being offended and jealous that another women might have what we may want to have. Since I can remember I have always supported women and will always support women – why? because this crazy world has made me realize that a sister by my side no matter who she may be or where she may be in her life will understand me. We are all different physically, menatally and spiritually but all the same because we are WOMEN. Some of us are mothers, and others taking care of our parents, some of us are married and others being abused, some of us working and others stay at home moms, some of us healthy and some of us dying of a disease, some of us are being controlled and others ignored, hell I could continue forever with a list but what is important to remember is that we should not envy or judge each other but support each other no matter your situation.
So those of you ladies who criticize and judge and tell Carrie that she talks shit – reality check “you are the one talking shit”.
Carrie I love reading your blogs because it keeps me going when I feel at times I have lost control of my life and that no matter how hard it gets at times – I must always put myself first and if I can do that – well hell – I can do pretty much anything I set my mind to do and in return be completely fulfilled and be there for the ones I love.
Ladies it all comes down to this “Take Control of Your Life” and stop making excuses – your the only one who can change your path to happiness.
Hi Carrie, I for one love reading your blog. To the ones above complaining about it, why keep tuning in daily? Stop reading this blog. It’s that simple. Did you sign a contract that said you had to read it???? Start your own blog and title it “How One Miserable Mom Does It”.
Kudos to your response Julie.
Love that title “How One Miserable Mom Does It” just love it.
I’m totally confused by all the banter. Ummmm – unless I’ve missed something along the way (which hey maybe I have) is C2 suggesting she’s a therapist? No – she’s writing a blog – which is in fact a personal diary which you allow others to peek into. Here’s a tip – if you don’t like the style in which she writes, or what she writes about – check out other blogs….(like if you want one by someone who gets NO action but wishes she could get some…maybe from that filmmaker in your picture C2..:)then check out mine.)
Seriously – I just don’t understand the slam. It’s like radio – if you don’t like the station, flick it baby.
To those who critize, I think you have been missing the point of this blog, which has nothing to do with raising kids or even talking about kids. Look at the sections in the top menu… you see anything indicating that Carrie is going to talk about her children there? Nope… what I see is beauty, fashion, fitness and romance. So far, I think she’s been doing a great job on blogging about these aspects. So why come down on her cause she’s not talking about parenting and her own children?
This is a place where women come for inspiration on how to take care of the woman behind the mom. We often lose sight of our own desires and dreams because we feel like motherhood makes them unattainable.
Carries dreams and desires are not the same as everyone else’s and just because she chooses to look good physically and be in good shape and healthy, doesn’t mean that has to be your goal and it definitely doesn’t make her self-centered. She just shows us that whatever your dream, it’s possible. It could be starting a bakery or learning to play an instrument for all I know. She is just encouraging us to act on those desires instead of waiting for all the right elements to miraculously fall into place, which they won’t.
So for all of you who accuse that Carrie can live her perfect life because she works from home and has all the time in the world while it would be impossible for you, maybe you should stop and look at yourself, right Mary Jane II (complainging your three kids are ripping up the house which is why you have no time for spell check). How ironic that you say this since you have time to read and complain about blogs while your kids are ripping up the house. And I bet this isn’t the only one you read either considering the 100 other similar ones you are comparing it to. I bet that takes up alot of the time you don’t have after your 9-5. Maybe you need to stop complaining and take a good long look at yourself and ask yourself exactly what it is you’re looking for and then just go out and find it because it obviously isn’t here.
And please, just quit it with the whole Brian thing and they’ve been together for how long? Who cares!!! Everyone’s motivation comes from something in particular, everyone is inspired by someone. How far fetched would it be that Brian actually did inspire her? Isn’t your partner supposed to bring out the best in you after all?
You know… I could go on and on but the point I’m making is that Carrie has every right to post whatever she wants and if you’re not happy with it then why don’t you spend the time and energy you spend complaining and accusing to find a better place for yourself?
Geez!
MJ
Ok, I have to pipe in here again. Great point Mary Jayn.. I was going to say the same thing. Being a good friend of Carrie’s I can assure you that this transformation or rather “taking charge of your life stuff” started happening before Brian was in the picture. BUT like MJ just stated, what’s wrong with being motivated/inspired/fueled by your partner?? Yes, I agree, your partner should bring out the best in you. Having someone who totally understands and accepts you for you IS motivating- in so many ways. Don’t you want to be better when someone sort of expects that from you? Shouldn’t you expect it of yourself? In fact, I’d go as far as saying that the journey of fulfillment that Carrie is currently on IS what brought Brian into her life.
I’m wondering why a “momblog” has to be about your kids? Are you only a mom? Are you perhaps not only a mom but maybe a sister, an aunt, a daughter, a niece, an artist, an athlete, an entrepreneur, an employee, a student of life, a woman? etc.etc.
Oh and if you were to meet C2 in person, you’d immediately see that she practices what she preaches.
..Yes, YOUR life really could be that good!
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hey carrie cat got your tongue??
seriously ladies stop getting your panties in a twist. when did criticism become hate? challenging ones thoughts and opinions is one of the great ways we can grow as individuals.
i like carries blog , i enjoyed the few tips with fitness, and beauty tricks .. i must admit reading about her man all the time isnt the greatest so i skip it , sounds to me whoever is opposing her blogging topics obviously got offended by the things she may have said and why not call her out on it? sparks are flying here and the commenters that have carries back seem to be her friends, hey ladies it ok to defend your friend but its also ok for her to hear the other side..
maybe i missed it but i didnt see anyone called her a therapist nor did they say they came here for a “quick fix” or ways to solve their problems
and honestly why is it just because that someone critisized some of topics that they have to automatically be miserable, jealous, desperate, a self-loather, pathetic, needing to seek inspiration within themselves etcccccccccccc
carrie isnt the first nor the last who will say things on the great world wide web that may piss or iritate ppl. So to carries fan team, simer down.
oh and stop with the IF YOU DONT LIKE IT STOP READING. Maybe in some ways its like they can’t look away from watching a train wreck. (NOT LITERALLY) im not saying carrie is a train wreck im using it as an expression.
I don’t think the cat has gotten her tongue. I think she’s just wise enough to keep out of this. She did reply and think it was exactly what she should’ve written. No more, no less. Had she said anything more it would have come off as defensive thus adding fuel to the already burning fire.
I completely agree with you GoCowboys when you say that critism isn’t hate. It isn’t. But there is a way to do it and that shouldn’t be by hashing out unfounded accusations, assumptions, etc. such as:
“something tells me were hearing the story of a trust fund girl is that the case C2? really is it? if so stop making it sound like your work so hard, cause it offends others out there with the 9-5″
“I think that you are very self centered and extremly sensitive, and you talk a lot of shit.”
“having children makes Carrie no more a parent than having a piano makes her a pianist”
I mean come on…
no rather you & the same other ladies keep addressing the comments left (even mine that was not meant to accuse or attack anyone, so there would be no adding fuel to any fire in this case)
i think its all rather silly at this point. carrie is a big girl with big words and she can write.
theres the good, the bad & the ugly. take charge of your blog from the topics you choose to post to cases like this. unfortunatly unlike in a real social environment there are no norms or proper ways of going about commenting, praising or critisizing something we feel like on the web.
No doubt a friend, brother, or mother can get defensive reading comments like those. But any blogger knows its a part of the job.You dont choose to reply to the good ass kissing ones from friends you take your blog seriously especially when you consider it your work and not just play time.
Ok so carrie chooses not to answer, thats fine she is entitled to do what she wants. but then everyone else should stay back in there corners of the ring, because there is only so much you can say on her behalf. If you have the time to put something out there and stand by your work then you dont ignore this, you defend your efforts and leave it at that.
We all know that you can never make everyone happy, but you certainly dont avoid the situation. Its clear this site doesnt drive so much traffic that she cant reply.
really to each their own , my question at this point remains the same to carrie, cat got your tongue?
I think that The CAT that C2 adopted on her balcony definitly caught her tongue!!!!!! I’m just sayin!!!!
Hey Guys!
Keep ALL the comments coming
As you can see, I don’t censor, truncate or limit anyone who chooses to express themselves. Whenever I see debate and emotion of this scale, I know one thing to be sure…. A nerve has been touched – and that’s all that matters to me.
With respect to defending myself… Oh my, I can’t begin to imagine what anyone’s life would be like if they spent time on defending themselves to people who didn’t like, agree or support what they were doing. My ‘defense’ is actually quite simple… 5 days a week, I will be putting out content exactly the same as I always have. No deviations whatsoever.
Love it. Hate it. Disagree with it. Pick it apart… That’s entirely up to you!
Kinda reminds of something……
You can spend your time commenting on life… Or you can participate in it…
I choose the latter. Be well all and have a great weekend!
Stay Sexy – C2.
now thats the spirit C2!
I think it’s great to want to inspire people to change their lives and reach for their dreams, but you also have to try really hard to follow through on what you promise to deliver (outright or implied).
My understanding- though I don’t want to assume- of what some other people are trying to say, is that they don’t really feel that you have delivered on the “how does she do it MOM” front.
For example, if I had a personal blog about fantastic french food, the readers would expect to read mainly about food. If I wrote about french clothing, french movies, and wrote continually about the cute french poodle I got and how everyone wants to pet it, well where’s the food? Instead, if I only threw in a few lines about the escargot I ate one day or the lukewarm french onion soup I tried, I bet my readers would be disappointed.
Why not try to add some posts about how you really DO make it work, juggling all of your commitments AND making special moments with your children, not just with your boyfriend?
Maybe you could update your post about working out in the park, and incorporate a way to play with your kids AND get a killer workout at the same time? Anther thing you might talk about is how to introduce a new key person (ie, a new boyfriend) into the lives of your children. Or you could talk about some of they ways YOUR KIDS have inspired you to be a better person.
I think that what may have rubbed some people the wrong way is that you talk about your kids almost as an afterthought, and sometimes even imply that they are a hindrance to love and achieving your dreams.
It is true that many moms make their kids their whole world and feel guilty about putting themselves first. But I think a lot of moms feel such joy and pride in their children that they don’t mind sacrificing some of themselves to make sure their kids grow up happy and healthy. Some moms might be kind of shocked at your somewhat indifferent attitude towards your kids. I know I am.
It’s really great to know that you can have a life and love again after divorce – but if you didn’t say that you were 32 and divorced, I could have mistaken this blog for that of a teenage girl writing about her first boyfriend.
Always remember that “lifelong” partners may come and go, but your children are forever.
Women who complain have things they are unhappy about in their own lives. I know this, personally, but why dish it to someone else as though it’s their fault?? I write on my blog about the things that make me unhappy, and the things I want to change…and search out others who do it as well, hence my finding C2, and I am also a mom of two. There are not many references to my kids on that blog because, dammit, my life is all about them, and I am in a search to figure out who I am, just me, being a mom doesn’t mean the rest of your being ceases to exist, and that is what C2 is trying to teach us. there are many women that i know that fully believe that they exist as an individual until the moment they give birth,they may as well change their name permanently because they let the person they were dissolve into nothingness and think that this is the only way that EVERY Mom should live. While it may be good for some, I know that many who love reading this blog, as well as C2 herself knows: that is not the only person I am….or will ever be….forever is a long time to forget who you are supposed to be. I firmly believe that if I don’t do something to live in my skin that makes me happy and proud; then what kind of role model am I supposed to be to my kids? what kind of hypocrite do I have to be to think that this it’s ok to tell them what to do for their lives and then do nothing with my own??
“my mom is only this…” is the worst way to hear a child describe what his mom is to other people…” my mom is awesome, she does this and this and this….” would be better, and that can only be achieved by doing something other than wiping their asses 24/7. way to go C2, and happy followers!, I just found you and now I am sticking with you!Because , yes, i looove being a mom of two and hope to have another real soon, but i still have dreams, wishes and desires for the three women that i am: Mom, Wife, and Woman
This is so beautiful. Thanks for sharing.