Life, Love & Lemons…Episode #3

It’s amazing what you can do when you decide to.

9 days down, an uncertain number remains.

But something struck me as interesting last night when the pangs of dread started to creep through my body once the bedroom fell dark and silent.

Sleep has not been a friend to me this week.

And as I lay in bed pleading for the soporific qualities of the aromatherapy bath I had just lavished in to take hold, I realized how much time had passed since I’d looked into his piercing, ghostly eyes, been touched by his gentle hands or buried my head in his powerful chest.

8 nights has been an eternity.

But flashed by in a lightening hue all at the same time.

The capacity to make oneself ‘ok’ with a situation never ceases to amaze me.

But as I opted to follow my thoughts and experience where they were selecting to take me, I became entirely aware that I had transcended beyond merely being ‘ok’…

… I was, in fact, thriving.

I am 13 weeks away from the Fitness Competition and following my training and nutrition calendar as veraciously as I had been before Brian left.

My work has exploded to an international audience of ‘more-life-wanting’ Moms and I relish the opportunity of showing them (you) the ‘How Does She Do It’ style of existence.

There is a constant but discernable dance in my step and melody in my head as I go through the days, learning to be single (temporarily) again.

And as the hypnotic soldiers of sleep finally started marching through my consciousness, a final thought came caressing over me……

Circumstances don’t create contentment or a prosperous life.  We must decide to do so ourselves.

No matter the situation.

Stay Sexy,  
C2