Lorie’s Story….

A couple of months ago, if you would have asked me what I was proud of… I would have answered anything and everything to do with my kids.

Today, I still am proud of my kids and will always be, but I am proud of who I am and what I have been doing to find who I was before my kids became a part of my world.

Me.

My interest; my passions.

To be honest, I suffered way to long at just being a mom and living through my kids. Don’t think they aren’t my pride and joy, they are,  but I put myself on hold too long.

I went through a hard postpartum and was at the point of questioning everything in my life. Things that always seemed so important to me just became a duty.

I went to work every day.

Played with my kids.

Talked with my husband… but I was not there anymore.

It was like I was an outsider starring at my family and seeing time fly by.

I didn’t do anything with passion anymore… just enough to get by.

I always wanted a career… I had that career.

I always wanted to have a family… I had that family.

Funny how, I had gotten what I wanted but took it all for granted.

I was just not happy anymore. Negative. Things were truly falling apart.

I took made a decision with my husband to stop work and stay at home with my children because I wanted time with them but the most important in this was to find myself.

Carrie seemed to have slipped into my world at this very moment.

Every time I read her blog posts, I felt shivers.

Here was someone that seemed to speak the exact thing that I had been feeling for so long but the difference between her and I. She acted on this feeling and changed her world.

A true inspiration to me, I started reading How Does She Do It Mom and slowly became a part of her movement, Mom Fitness Makeover.

At first, I was a little scared and that’s why I only took baby steps into her revolution.

Scared of what? The unknown.

I was always skinny before my kids and I have battled with my weight since my first pregnancy. I thought that my weight was the only problem but after I started coaching with Carrie just in the last month…I am a new person.

I, like most other mothers, put my life and my interests on hold for the well being of my kids.

Now today I look at the situation from a different perspective, I was always there for my kids and provided them what they needed but put myself on hold.

I want my kids to grow up and be confident in whatever they do; to have passions and how best to provide these opportunities to them than by showing them that I have interests and passions too.

I have a life.

I am their mother but I am also Lorie.

Opportunities seem to be knocking at my door.

I always wanted to write and well 2 weeks ago a journalist position became available at the Family resource centre on the base. I jumped on this opportunity. I am still nervous about it but I take it in strides because the minute I start writing it all seems natural.

My self confidence is soaring and I have come to realize that it wasn’t my weight the problem.

It was my whole thinking.

I was hard on myself and have come to realize that you attract what you put out into the world.

Carrie has asked me to have a gratitude journal and well my post for today is that I am grateful to embark on this train to regain my self-confidence and to have had Carrie slip into my world to inspire me.